Audacious enough to live

You’re audacious because you live.

Long time no post😪

I haven’t written in so long that opening a blank page now feels like meeting an old friend I accidentally abandoned.

I had a moment of introspection recently, and I realized how courageous I am. Or maybe how courageous I’ve been.

Waking up is by God’s grace, but to live, to really live is to be audacious. Not just to exist, but to actually live.

I like to think of living as enjoying being alive, regardless.

Regardless of who you are.

What mess you’re in.

What you think of yourself, or what the world thinks of you.

What grade you got on that test, or what life throws at you.

Being able to still feel grateful for life, to still find peace within yourself despite everything, is what it means to truly live.

And by being excited about life, I don’t necessarily mean smiling and laughing all the time. I mean being at peace internally. Being comfortable with who you are. And that takes courage.

To live is a choice, and choosing to live is a bold one.

There’s a trend going around on TikTok about people who have lost loved ones. I came across a video of a girl sharing her grief, and I broke down crying because I felt so much pain for her. And then I thought if I feel this much pain watching her story, imagine how she must feel herself.

But she’s still living despite it all. She wakes up every day and chooses to live. To go to school. To make friends. To be happy again. That is strength. That is courage.

Last night, I cried myself to sleep because of how sad I felt about my own life. This morning, nothing had changed, but I still chose to live. I chose to clean my room, eat something, read a book, and try to be happy.

That is courageous because I chose to bet on nothing, I chose to have hope, hope is not a strategy but unfortunately is all we have.

sometimes I have to fight myself just to get out of bed. And fighting yourself is one of the hardest things to do.

Life is meant to be lived, and to live is to choose to live, that means living is a choice. Choosing only exists when there’s more than one thing on the table. And with life, there’s always going to be more than one thing on the table.

Bills to pay and friends to hang out with.

Heartbreak to nurse and work to get done.

Fear of failure and dreams too big to ignore

The urge to give up and the reason to keep going

Bad days and little things to smile about

Disappointment and Hope refusing to die

Silent battles and loud expectations

You don’t have to ignore one to get the other done, Living is learning how to carry both.

You do not have to ignore one part of your humanity to survive another.

You have to be strong, but that doesn’t mean you cannot be human.

So as you go about your day and live your life, remember to do it confidently.

You were made for it.